How Quickly Things Change

One early Sunday morning, I woke up at about 3:00 am because I did not feel well at all. I was not physically sick but emotionally sick, which actually caused me to feel physically sick. That may not make sense but needless to say my stomach hurt in a way that it had not hurt for a long time.

I tried to keep myself busy for an hour or so before I finally decided to get ready for my early morning church meetings. It is sad to say but I really did not have much of a desire to attend church that Sunday. I was not happy and did not really want to even pretend to be. I was not in a good mindset.

I got to the church very early and began setting up the chairs in the overflow of the chapel because they had not been set up the day before. After that I cleaned the office and tried to put away all the papers that were on the desk and floor. It looks pretty good now, so maybe it was all for the better.

During the first meeting of the day we are reading as a group from start to finish the "Preach My Gospel" manual that the missionaries study and teach from. We were ready about the Atonement and how we can go to the Lord with all of our pains, sins, struggles, etc. both spiritual, physical and emotional. The thought that immediately came to mind was "How Quickly Things Change". I highlighted a couple of sentences in the manual because I did not want to forget them and wanted to be able to find them quickly the next time I needed them.

I thought about that statement all during the next meeting and how things do change so quickly, sometimes because of things we do, sometimes because of things others do and sometimes we have no idea why or how things change so quickly. The days leading up to that Sunday were not the greatest for me as I had found out on Thursday or Friday that I was no longer going to be paid a commission on the sales that I made. I also felt like a really good family relationship was sort of falling apart. My pain was coming more from the family friendship that I felt was changing. I was not to worried about the decrease in my overall pay because I think that will all work out in the end, or at least I hope so.

That day I thought about a lot about how quickly things changed and ran some scenarios in my mind about how quickly things changed for Tracie and the kids as they were driving to church on a Sunday morning and then all of the sudden they were sliding off the road crashing into tension wires and barely escaping serious damage. I thought of how quickly relationships change because that is what I felt was happening. (I have friendship listed as a topic to blog on in the near future) And last of all I thought about how quickly things can change if we will really apply the Atonement to our lives. I need to learn to do this better.